tRisTe

this means sad in espanol. originally, the title posted was cansada but upon further reflection i thought i should double check that translation, for its been awhile since ive brushed up on my spanish. good thing i did so as cansada means tired which is not the word i was going for. i was looking for sad, as tonite, i am sad. and thus, the introduction to this blog: triste (sad).

tonite marks the end to nearly half a decade spent with jack, our yellow lab. aww, jack. i wouldn't honestly say hes been a good dog. faithful, yes. companion, yes. energetic, yes. good, not so much. and this isnt jacks fault altogether, id like to blame some of it on his breed. labs are crazy, pure and simple. they need room to run, owners to walk, and an original onslaught of discipline to set them on the right course. jack has had none of that for awhile so taken this and the fact that he is a lab, disaster seems to strike all too often. i have so struggled with this decision, and in saying this, i mean its been a good 3 years of should i keep him or shouldn't i? however every time i ponder this question i think futuristically in that he has got to calm down someday. yet, how many years am i going to continue to ponder this question which seemingly yields the same results year after year? jacks not going to calm down and to his credit, its not really his fault. and so, ive had to come to terms with reality and have made decisions accordingly. i just cant deal with him anymore. i take that back, i could deal with him, however id have to get rid of joey and thats just not an option. and so jacks out. and i wallow in a little guilt yet in alot of relief at the thought of having this stressor out of my life. and God takes care of even these little details in life as jack is being taken by my (ex?) in-laws. so, not only will he be going to a good home, but he will also be able to be visited by joey, which was a crucial determinant in this whole decision making processo (yes, that was spanish again). and so, i believe triste is completely indicative of my mood at the present moment as tonite is my last night with jack. i will miss him ever so much(at times) because hes been a great dog and its a very sad thing to have to leave soemthing you love. however, i will leave it at that for if i begin to list all of the reasons that have led me to this decision, i will no longer be triste, i will be loco and that doesnt need to happen on his last night here...