ConFUsiOn

i am very aware that there are many things that go on in the world that can't be explained, or are not meant for everyone to figure out and understand. i have recently run across one of those issues and although i am aware there may not be a rational reason, it is still something that i very much wish someone would be able to explain to me. so, without naming names, there is this person. it was a person that i knew, in fact, i'd say i knew this person quite well. we'd had some good times, we'd had some bad times. after some of these bad times, this person decided that they'd had enough. apparently enough of the good times as well as enough of the bad times. enough of me. he(0r) she wanted me out of his(or) her life. completely out. this point was driven home on numerous occasions and to be quite honest, i don't think it would have been possible to make it any clearer then how clear it was made to me. i was no longer wanted by this person in anyway whatsoever. not to be seen, not to be heard, sometimes not even to breathe the same air as they. i did not argue. i did not beg or plead for this person to not hate me or to discard me in the way i was discarded. and so i thought it was done. he/she went his/her own way, i went mine. and yet, the confusion begins here. because a clean break is not what we've had. no, not at all. this person apparently did not fully mean what they said, because without his/her presence, i am not. i don't understand. was it all a lie? did i misunderstand? perhaps they are even reading this now... who knows? its all very confusing to me.