mY bAby, nO mOrE??

tuesday marked yet another transition in the elliott household. kindergarten. it was extremely bittersweet. im not gonna lie, most days this summer were spent with me yearning for the first day of school to hurry itself up. it was probably the combination of joey being older and therefore super bored as well as being basically homebound with the kids that i babysit, but whatever the reason, summer days just seemed to drag on and on. he was bored, i was bored, it was just kinda boring and i knew he needed more stimulation than i was capable of providing. last week, he turned six. i didn't think this would be a big deal yet as i went to pray for him after he had fallen asleep that night, i just started weeping. i don't typically use that word, weep, but it seems appropriate for this scenario as thats what it was, a weep-fest. i found myself mourning that we'd hit this new life stage and while it is exciting and necessary and welcomed, it is also the end of lazy mornings at home, summer days spent at the pool, and life as a stay-at-home mom as i know it. and it is sad. i only perpetuated the situation by pulling out all his baby pictures and crying (weeping) some more. anyways, this past tuesday officially marked the first day of kindergarten. i didn't cry as i dropped him off, like some of the moms did. i actually didn't even think i was going to cry at all, but as i came home to a quiet, empty house, reality hit. all that i have yearned for the last few years is quiet-ness. i love it, i adore silence and it isn't, ever, quiet with joey around. yet as i came and sat down in the quietness, the tears came again. its a good quiet as it symbolizes that he's healthy and growing and doing things that 6 year olds do, like going to school. but a sad quiet as the reality of life as we've known it will look different from now on. this probably sounds like a eulogy or something and thats silly because there is so much to be thankful and excited for. but its a transition no less which is usually marked with both happy and sad. anyways, yay for kindergarten:)