iNseRt: Pep tAlk

ok, deep breath. i am writing this to myself in hopes that in every crisis moment (which will number quite a few over the next 13 weeks) i can read my following words and truly believe that my life will turn out ok. this is the deal...i am almost closing in on an undergrad degree in psychology. feeling i have some degree of competence regarding the intra/inter personal skills, i surmised that this was a promising choice as far as degrees go. and thus far, ive been correct. however, unbeknownst(how in the world do you spell that??) to me, there are 3 required statistics classes which are required (imagine that) to be taken in order to graduate. and i, being the personality-type that i am, have chosen to leave them until the very end. i did complete one in an earlier semester and remember having these feelings which i am now re-experiencing all over again. i made it through and actually did quite decently in the class however in the midst of it, i felt like i was drowning for the entire 8 weeks. and im there again. math is not my thing. i know this and i therefore in the end know that these are the classes with which i will struggle most. but this sense of dread has overtaken me and i am worried about not even passing which in essence means not graduating. this is all ludacris when i step back and look at my history. every time i experience something such as this, i expect the worse and yet somehow, i make it through each and everytime. and thus, i write this to remind myself of this. i've spent, i dont know, probably 15 or 20 hours this week on t tests and anova tests and spss analysis and as i went this afternoon to test my accumlated knowledge, i found that i know nothing. i feel like crying or pulling out my hair or just applying to mcdonalds and being done with it all. my life feels consumed with this stuff. i cant stop thinking about it, ever. its this dark abyss and its freaking statistics. ahhh. i will make it through, i know this, although it certainly won't be my own power ...if anyone should so desire, i could use some prayer. actually, it would be even better if somebody would just step in and take this class for me. any takers??